Waters Deep and Sinking Feet

Picture this….You have just been with Jesus standing among a crowd that was pushing in towards Him. He had spoken life giving words over them, healed their sick, and being in a “desolate place” at the end of the day, the crowd was growing hungry.

Jesus took the offerings of a child, two mere fish and 5 loaves of bread. He raised them to heaven and blessed them. He told you and the other followers to go and pass them out to over 5 thousand people. The baskets never emptied. The supply was more than enough. Their bellies were full. Their physical needs satisfied.  There were 12 baskets of food left over, just enough for you and the other disciples. You stood in awe of what could not be explained other than to acknowledge that a miracle has occurred in your midst.

Then the scripture says IMMEDIATELY Jesus and the disciples (that is you in this story) got into the boat to go to the other side.  As night falls, Jesus gets out of the boat to go up a mountain to pray. As the waves and wind are crashing against the boat, you and the others, still resting inside, are being pushed farther and farther from Jesus on the mountain.  You pass concerned glances at one another. You start to move about quickly in an effort to get back to land.

You blink hard to focus your eyes. Could it be? Is SOMEONE WALKING on the sea? A ghost? Fear strikes your core. But then. You hear his tender familiar voice. “Take heart; it is I. Do not be afraid.” (Matt 14:27). Your heart skips a beat. Your faith pulses inside you. Your courage and ability to trust Him have been put to the test today. You yell out “Lord, if it is you, command me to come to you on the water.” (Matt 14:28). He says “Come”. So you (Peter) get out of the boat and walk on the water coming closer and closer to Him. BUT you see the wind, it pulses on your side, it rips through your robe. The reality of what you are doing flashed through your mind. Your eyes flicker from His face to your surroundings. Fear takes hold. Thoughts swirl. It happens in an instant. You begin to sink. In terror you cry out “Lord, save me.” (vs 30). Jesus wastes not one millisecond He reaches out His hand, He takes a strong hold on you. You are safe. His words come flowing out….”O you of little faith, why did you doubt?”.  You have seen things happen in your time with Him that can only mean He is. HE IS. HE IS THE PROMISED ONE. But you are a mere man with a heart of fear and you stumble to trust and believe. You vacillate between standing in awe and cowering in fear. You make your way to the boat. Safely inside. The storm ceases. Those that have been watching the events unfold from the safety of the boat, fall to their faces and say “Truly you are the Son of God.”

Oh Peter, how I so relate to you. Moments of prideful boasting of my faith only to let my eyes wonder to the fear that surrounds me. The “hows”. The “whens”. The “whats”.  The “waves”. They make my feet stumble. They cause me to sink and cry out “Lord, save me”

 

The song Oceans by Hillsong (you can click to listen/watch on Youtube)  has been my hearts cry and mantra of 2014.

Here are the words:

“Oceans (Where Feet May Fail)”

 You call me out upon the waters

The great unknown where feet may fail

And there I find You in the mystery

In oceans deep

My faith will stand

 And I will call upon Your name

And keep my eyes above the waves

When oceans rise

My soul will rest in Your embrace

For I am Yours and You are mine

 Your grace abounds in deepest waters

Your sovereign hand

Will be my guide

Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me

You’ve never failed and You won’t start now

 So I will call upon Your name

And keep my eyes above the waves

When oceans rise

My soul will rest in Your embrace

For I am Yours and You are mine

 Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders

Let me walk upon the waters

Wherever You would call me

Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander

And my faith will be made stronger

In the presence of my Savior

I will call upon Your Name

Keep my eyes above the waves

My soul will rest in Your embrace

I am Yours and You are mine

May He “Take me deeper than my feet would ever wander”

My dear friend gave me this for my 40th birthday in January. I have it in my kitchen as a daily reminder for the journey ahead.

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Blessings,

Tona

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